thoughts about money

People do pushing their limits to get some money, as much money as they can.
What for? Yes, to be free. To be free to do anything they want. A financial freedom.
But what happens is people don’t do a thing that they want to all their life. In pursuit of money.
So, what freedom?
What’s a sophisticated gadget if we don’t have time to use it?

First reasoning: You’d do it for the kid’s education. Tuition for a good school is getting higher.
Do you think that putting your kids in a good expensive school will assure their future? Yes, it’ll teach good things, but not everything necessary thing to live at their own.
It is still your responsibility to teach them how to live. No matter how many subjects you pay for your kid courses, it is still your responsibility. You have to learn how to teach your kid how to live, you can’t run nor hide.
But yes, you can blame your parents if they don’t teach you how. So now you’re clueless. Learn, so your kid won’t blame you.
What? You want your kid know how to get money? To be secured? So they can live exactly like you do? Oh, you’re so cruel. Let me go back, what is our purpose to get money again?

Second reasoning: You’d do it so at least your kid can enjoy financial freedom; you want them to be happy.
First of all, money on your kids pocket doesn’t make them happy. In contrary, they’ll run out on wants. Toys can’t make them happy anymore, coz they can get it without ever try hard. You have to conduct a lesson for your kid on how to try hard.
Plus you can’t make other people do everything for your kid while what she has to do is ask. She wouldn’t know how to live. She wouldn’t know how to socialize. She wouldn’t know how to be happy.
Our world is already a world of consumption. Our every day is other people try to seduce us to want their product, and our job is to get other people buy our product. It’s all about moving money in pockets, buy and selling things we’ve taken from earth resources.

So, what does money do again?

ini blog apaan sih !!?!?!

ini blog apaan sih!!?!?! kok isinya sedih2 mulu?
ya soalnya gw nulis diblog ini pas sedih / ada yg dipikirin doang, seneng2nya jarang diceritain, hahaha

pas seneng, lupa sama blog
pas seneng banget, mana kepikiran nulis disini

sempet gw mikir, blog ini kaya tempat sampah
sempet gw mikir, blog ini palette tempat gw berhias kata2 pengharapan ga berguna
sempet gw mikir, blog ini tempat berdoa

kayanya yg paling bener yg terakhir deh
isinya harapan2 gw, cara gw mengorganisir benang kusut pikiran gw
apa yg paling blog ini refleksikan, adalah Tuhan

ini cara gw berkomunikasi sama Tuhan
gw berdoa saat gw pengen sesuatu
gw berdoa saat gw butuh bantuan, untuk mengerti kehendak Nya
pas lg senengnya, terkadang gw lupa untuk bicara sama Tuhan

yang perlu gw lakukan sekarang adalah
bersyukur
bersyukur atas segala nikmat yang udah Tuhan berikan
bukan cuma berkeluh kesah aja

YA NGGA!
ALHAMDULILLAH

sekarang kerjaan gw oke
sekarang gw bisa nyicil mobil gw sendiri
sekarang gw punya gitar yang paling gw mau, berikut ampli sama efeknya
sekarang gw punya temen2 setia, yg dari dulu pengen gw punya
sekarang gw punya istri yang sholeh
sekarang istri gw lg hamil, mengandung anak gw!

ALHAMDULILLAH BANGET!
Terima kasih Ya Allah

Pagi

Ini kayanya tulisan pagi saya yang pertama
Sebelumnya ada sih tulisan yang dimulainya pagi, tapi selesainya sore atau malam
Belum pernah ada yang ditulis pagi

Eh ntar dulu
Kayanya ada sih, tapi masuk kategorinya subuh kali ya, yang diposting di antara jam 12 malam hingga jam 5 pagi..

Well, this is the sleepiest blog post ever!!!

no complain

i'm not complaining this is not the shrink room
i'm not complaining i'm not in pain
i'm not complaining i have more than enough
i'm just doing what i can.

ok, maybe i'm not the expert, but i'm learning
yes, i'm making excuses again.

the truth is, there is not one day, i didn't play with my computer instead of working continuously
it is simply because i don't know how
yes, i admit that i didn't give the best for what i'm paid for
and no, i'm not proud of it
sometimes i feel like barney from the tv show, except i'm not proud of it and people are watching me closely

i am also unhappy since its not easy for me to talk to you guys
it is also sad that some of you happier to talk behind me
the thing is, i cant ask you guys for what i should do
the thing is, i should be the expert, while i'm not
and there is nobody can help me while nobody can be blamed also for assigning me in this

you know what am i doing now?
i'm pretending that i'm working behind my desk while actually i'm writing this
dear mr. boss that watching me from across the room, give me mercy

open for reading

beberapa bulan yang lalu saya memutuskan untuk menutup blog ini untuk umum, dikarenakan lagi-lagi saya merasa beberapa posting saya di masa lalu tidak layak untuk konsumsi semua orang.
saya sedikitpun tidak ada niat untuk menghapusnya, demi mengawetkan memori dan mendokumentasikan histori tentang sedikit yang terjadi di masa lalu saya.

kali ini, saya membukanya lagi. kenapa?

tidak lain karena saya sampai pada satu kesimpulan bahwa di titik ini, pembaca blog saya hanyalah orang-orang yang cukup mengenal saya, dan cukup dewasa untuk menilai saya secukupnya saya perlu dinilai.
ya, salah satu alasan saya menutup blog ini untuk umum sebelumnya adalah karena ternyata saya perduli akan pendapat orang lain mengenai saya, dan saya malu akan hal-hal salah yang saya lakukan di masa lalu.

tapi kemudian saya berpikir, sejelek apapun jalan yang telah saya lalui, selicik apapun saya menggeliat untuk melewatinya, saya telah melewatinya. dan saya mengambil pelajaran darinya.

saya berharap tulisan saya di masa lalu bisa dilihat seperti lukisan, sebuah seni tulisan, tentang seorang bocah laki-laki yang mencoba memikirkan sendiri bagaimana cara melewati masanya.

terima kasih para pembaca, kalianlah alasan saya bercerita.

Menemukan Diri

Apakah mungkin menemukan diri kita di dalam orang lain?
Saya tidak bicara tentang sesuatu yang bersifat fisik, saya bicara tentang pengalaman unik menemukan jiwa yang serupa

Saya coba ejawantahkan
Mungkin sesederhana ketertarikan pada topik yang sama, atau kesamaan pengalaman
Menikmati musik yang sama
Terinspirasi oleh buku yang sama
Menangis saat menonton film yang sama
Tertawa karena memikirkan hal yang sama

Akan menarik jika kita bisa bertukar kata
Rgds,
Arief

GE stands for Glowing Eyes

I once had a friend, with a crooked smile and a good teeth.
But what people remember from her, is her glowing eyes. It show something from the inside, and people like, noticing it.
She got a good personality, good at making people comfortable talking with her. I enjoy her companion, more than just an acquintance, but its a casual one.
I know this is arguable, l thought that all the energy comes from the eye.

One day, she had a crush with someone.
That crush, becomes an obsession.
With the glowing eyes, she managed to get a relationship with him.
She was all happy, cheerful, even insightful about her new relationship.
She gave all of her time, makes no arrangement with other friends, including me.

Me and a bunch of good friends kind of missing her.
Its going on for a few months, but things changed.
The boy got bored, and dumped her.
She looses her glowing eyes.

Well yeah, she got time for friends at that time, but without the glowing eyes, she cannot satisfy what we've missed from her.
I try to retain her trust, in order to make her tell exactly what happened, that make her looses her glowing eyes.
I try to help, but I can't. She's beyond help. She closes her.
The glowing eyes has become, a drowning eyes.

Time pasts, years, she managed to cope.
The drowning eyes, becomes a just a normal, regular eyes.
She talks, she accepting things.
She is being like other girl, well more like pretending to be one, but everybody trust her.

Occasionally, we met each other.
We trade normal stories.
It was all normal, and boring.

Until one day, she is seeing the boy, the one who dumped her before, again.
It doesn't take months, I see the glow again.
That glowing eyes that I always missed.
The boy seems to be having a good intention, realizing what potential that he wasted long ago.

As a normal, logical person, she was scared to trip to the same hole all over again.
She's asking my advise.
I told her to go for it. Even if it doesn't work, its worth the try.
As I already say before, I've never see such glowing eyes again.

And its all worth it.
She got married with the boy, locking her glowing eyes in the right place, for the rest of her life.

The sad part is, she didn't spare time anymore for me since.
But even if I cannot see the glowing eyes anymore, knowing its attached with her, is already comforting.
Now I figured what GE stands for.
Rgds,
Arief