New short story posted! Finally! :)

Hi all,

Akhirnya setelah beberapa tahun menghilang, saya bisa nulis cerpen lagi! Hehe, emang nih seenak jidat bgt nih jedanya, ga produktif!

Tapi emang sih, saya belakangan ga pernah sengaja duduk untuk bikin cerpen, termasuk yg ini. Saya nulis cuman karena ada panggilan hati aja buat nulis, haha.

Makasih buat yg udah nge proof read sekaligus jadi pembaca pertama, kali ini judulnya:

see you at the rest area

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Enjoy!

posted by anu @ 7:14 PM 0 comments links to this post

Passion of Life

Forget what is like to chase my passion
Now I don't even know what it is
I'm not even sure

I blend into my job
That's what I do
That's the only thing I can do with my most of time

Everytime I touch my guitar, I feel sad
I don't play it very well anymore
Blaming myself for being untalented
Or unpracticed
Yes, blame it again to the time

What my money can buy, isn't worth the while earning it

I miss the passion
The passion to do what I want to do the most
To do the most I want to do in life
The passion of life

Can I make my passion of life for living?
Fuck man, I'm not sure
I don't have the guts to do that
Can I play well if I have all the time to practice?
Can I write good songs if I give my ears all the good references?
Does anyone gonna give a damn of my work?
My work of my passions of life?

It is me unselfishly
Trying to make justification not to
Can I give my wife to be a decent living?
Even with my current job, I still haven't give her all the fun she wants
Will her stay if I don't have a penny, idealistically chasing my passion of life?

Idealistically/Idiotically leave my current job?

Yes, I am that coward that people despise
A man not chasing his dream, his passion
Don't even know the meaning of his life, too busy trying to make a living

Someday, will I have the courage?
God show me the way
The way a man could chase his passion
Passion of life

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Wish You Love

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss
But more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best, my very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love

Rachael Yamagata - Wish You Love
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posted by anu @ 8:09 PM 0 comments links to this post

The No

I kept this memory inside
Its the day when I'm trying so hard not to jump off the chair

We talk about the same thing
We talk about your concerns

Of course, nobody trust me but you
I don't even trust myself
Tell me bout it
Yes, I was pretending

Did you know?
Did you know, but pretend that you didn't?

It was fun
More than I expect
It was an adult to adult conversation that I always miss
A fresh, open, yet adventurous mind

You're the reason I'm scared of rejection
You're the reason of the inconfidence
You represents the dark side of me

I hate you
And I always be
You are the 'no' that I will not forget

Sorry but I'm not at your side or his
I am at my side, not alone
I will stop pretending
I will not let you dessert or appetizer me
Anymore

Rgds,
Arief Nugraha

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Disco 2000

Well we were born within one hour of each other.
Our mothers said we could be sister and brother.
Your name is Deborah, Deborah.
It never suited ya.
Oh they thought that when we grew up,
we'd get married, and never split up.
We never did it, although often I thought of it.

Oh Deborah, do you recall?
Your house was very small,
with wood chip on the wall.
When I came around to call,
you didn't notice me at all.

I said let's all meet up in the year 2000.
Won't it be strange when we're all fully grown.
Be there at 2 o'clock by the fountain down the road.
I never knew that you'd get married.
I would be living down here on my own on
that damp and lonely Thursday years ago.

You were the first girl at school to get breasts.
Martyn said that yours were the best.
The boys all loved you but I was a mess.
I had to watch them trying to get you undressed.
We were friends but that was as far as it went.
I used to walk you home sometimes but it meant,
oh it meant nothing to you,
cos you were so popular.

Deborah do you recall?
Your house was very small,
with woodchip on the wall.
When I came around to call,
you didn't notice me at all.

I said let's all meet up in the year 2000.
Won't it be strange when we're all fully grown.
Be there at 2 o'clock by the fountain down the road.
I never knew that you'd get married.
I would be living down here on my own
on that damp and lonely Thursday years ago.

Oh yeah,
oh yeah.

Ah do you recall?
Your house was very small,
with wood chip on the wall.
When I came around to call,
you didn't notice me at all.

I said let's all meet up in the year 2000.
Won't it be strange when we're all fully grown.
Be there at 2 o'clock by the fountain down the road.
I never knew that you'd get married.
I would be living down here on my own,
on that damp and lonely Thursday years ago.
Oh what are you doing Sunday baby.
Would you like to come and meet me maybe?
You can even bring your baby.
Ohhh ooh ooh. Ooh ooh ooh ooh.
What are you doing Sunday baby.
Would you like to come and meet me maby?
You can even bring your baby.
Ooh ooh oh. Ooh ooh ooh ooh. Ooh ooh ooh ooh. Oh
Rgds,
Arief Nugraha

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posted by anu @ 9:41 AM 0 comments links to this post

anu: ga polos lagi

Engga, saya masih orang yang sama kok
Cuman seiring umur bertambah, banyak ngobrol, bertambah pengalaman, jadi mulai menyadari banyak hal
Kalo dunia itu engga selalu seperti yang kita pikirin
Gaya amat dunia

Banyak orang menyimpan rahasia
Banyak orang tidak mengatakan yg sebenarnya, yg katanya demi kebaikan
Kebaikan siapa ya

Demi mencapai keinginan, rencananya masing2, atau demi segaris ketidaktegaan, kebohongan kecil bisa dibuat
Tapi bukan itu kok yg mau saya bahas
Bukan tentang bohong

Orang ternyata ga seperti yang kita pikirkan
Jangankan orang yg baru kita kenal
Orang yg kita pikir udah kenal banget, bareng sama kita bertahun-tahun
Ternyata bisa nyembunyiin diri
Atau mungkin menunggu kita mengerti
Sampe habis kesabarannya

Well, teman-teman, sekarang saya sudah tidak polos lagi
Saya sekarang tahu maksud kalian
Ok emang telat sih, tapi mending telat kan daripada ga nyadar sama sekali
Sekarang saya tidak bisa lagi langsung percaya kata-kata kalian

Tidak ada yg suka distereotipekan
Tapi kita semua memang punya kesamaan
Ada bahasa, yang bukan kata-kata
Tapi eksistensinya sangat jelas
Tubuh kita yang mengatakan
Walau mulut kita bisa bohong

Kita semua satu organisme yg sama
Yang bergetar pada frekuensi yg sama

Anu, tidak polos lagi
Anu, tidak lagi meyakinkan diri untuk percaya
Anu, menerima kenyataan, bahwa tidak semua orang itu baik, dan baik itu goddamn relatif
Anu, tahu bahwa semua berjalan dengan tujuan, yang kadang harus berkorban
Anu, terus berjalan...
Rgds,
Arief Nugraha

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posted by anu @ 9:27 AM 0 comments links to this post

balada kecengan SD

Siang ini gw dateng ke nikahan anggi
Anggi itu temen dan tetangga dari sd.
Dulu waktu SD sempet sihh, ngeceng dia, hihi
Ya biasalah, ngeceng2 anak sd gituu

Sekarang jadi keinget aja
Gw itu dulu klo ngeceng orang, kayanya sukaaaaa banget
Jd klo suka satu cewek, bener2 suka dan kepikiran bgt.
Gw juga jadi inget kebodohan2 gw, karena dulu gw sangat pemalu dan sama sekali ga punya referensi gimana caranya ngedeketin cewek
Kecuali novel lupus dan film dono
Dua referensi yang sangat bertolak belakang, yang satu lupus yg ngocol abis tp gapernah berani nembak (waktu itu lupus belum berani nembak poppy), sama warkop dgn pendekatannya yg humoris, jail, dan juga jangan lupa, cabul
Karena gw waktu itu sangat pemalu jadi ya ga mungkin la ya gw pake pendekatan warkop, jadi gw pake pendekatan lupus

Gw inget, dulu kalo malem2 semangaat banget pengen buru2 pagi, pengen buru2 sekolah, soalnya bisa ngeliat si kecengan :)
Begitu nyampe disekolah, langsung deh nyari2, trus curi2 pandang deeh
Tp yaudah, sebatas itu aja
Kayanya kalo deketan itu deg degan bgt, trus kalo ngobrol salting abis

Sebenernya pengen bgt nyatain, bilang 'aku suka kamu' tapi gabisa, soalnya gatau caranya! That simple
Mungkin beda sama temen2 laen yg punya kakak, jadi punya role model, punya seseorang yg bisa dijadiin contoh, punya seseorang yg bisa dimintain pendapat

Sepanjang taun waktu kelas 6sd, hal itu kepikiran terus
Kepikiran gimana caranya nyatain
Bikin skenario2 yg pada akhirnya ga pernah dijalanin
Sampe akhirnya masa-masa sd nya abis, huhu

Saat itu, gw bener2 nyesel ga sempet nyatain
Sampe smp pun, masi kepikiran, kangen masa masa sd
Kangen si kecengan
Tp seiring dgn berjalannya waktu, ya namanya jg anak kecil ya, punya kecengan yg lain deeehh, lupa dehh ama kecengan yg lama ;D

And it start all over again

Gw gatau kalo temen2 ngerasa kaya gini ato ngga
I miss that feeling
I miss that feeling really really crazy about someone
Really really think about someone every single moment before sleep
Really excited when get a chance to be near, to talk
I swear once I wept before sleep (with unclear reason) just to think about it
But I don't have the courage to tell her how I feel ;)

Bukan berarti sekarang ga pernah ngerasa kaya gitu, tapi beda aja gitu rasanya dibandingin waktu sd
Ya ga sih?

Dear Anggi temenku dari SD (her blog is available at my side bar), selamat menempuh hidup baru
From the bottom of my heart, I'm so happy for you and your husband ;)
Rgds,
Arief Nugraha

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